Somebody Loves You

My heart is weighing down heavily today, and I don't like the feeling at all. I was hoping that towards the end of school every day and every week would just get better and better and happier and happier as I get closer to Nepal. But the past couple days have been kind of a kick in the face, putting life back into perspective.

I had a great night last night hanging out with just the girls on my Nepal team. We were supposed to just get together us girls to hang out but little did we know that our team leader had a scavenger hunt planned for the 5 of us going all over Colorado Springs accomplishing different tasks in order for us to reunite with our team leader. It was actually a great time! It bonded us girls together and allowed us to have a great time (without our leader). We were able to make a homeless couple's day by buying them coffee and praying with them, getting to see all of downtown Colorado Springs, and an unexpected stop at the Nepalese restaurant where we got to eat and try some Nepalese food! Supposedly we were not supposed to stop and eat at the restaurant, but somehow we did anyway, but it turned out to be a great time (and story) and a great experience for us to try the food that we will be eating for full month. At the end of the night we were reunited with our team leader and got to share some good laughs. This is one of the reasons my heart has been heavy today...at the end of the night our leader told us that one of the girls on the team won't be venturing with us to Nepal. Due to reason's I'm not even quite sure of, the timing was not right in her life to go on an overseas mission trip. I didn't think it affected me that much until today, when that's all I can think about. We have spent months together now as a team just bonding and becoming a family if you will, all 11 of us, and now to have somebody not go is heartbreaking. It changes the whole dynamic of the team, and everything we have been working towards. Of course she will not be forgotten, but at the same time I wish it wasn't like this.

Another thing that has been weighing me down is that this is the last week me and all of my roommates will be living in the same house. One of my roommates is moving out on Sunday, leaving these last few days to be soaked up to enjoy each other as friends and roommates. The four of us have lived together for two years now, and it is suddenly coming to an end this weekend, quicker than I'm ready for. It is a bittersweet feeling. I'm excited to be moving out and living with new people in a new place, but at the same time I could not have asked for better roommates the past two years. They have been a huge part in my journey with Christ, encouraging me and inspiring me in ways they don't even know. I will be sad to leave them, for they have become some of my closest friends.

I'm headed off to class now. 10 more school days until Summer break! Can't wait!